A happy change

Over the past couple of months something has changed, for once I actually feel content and even calm? What?! That doesn’t happen usually. It’s nice, my brain has a habit of causing me to feel a lot worse when I don’t stick to my routine or overthink. For a long, long time my mental health has got in the way of my physical recovery. It’s not something I find easy to talk about properly but essentially a lot of my flare ups have been caused by my bad brain.


You’re not alone

Fellow chronically ill friends, I promise there are people exactly like you out there. Feeling completely alone, even once I’d met other ill people, was one of the biggest challenges I’ve experienced during the course of my illness.

Six years

Wednesday the 7th of March 2012. The day I became ill with myalgic encephalomyelitis was six years ago today. I remember that day so vividly. I remember gradually feeling worse and worse throughout the day and then just crashing on the sofa, I had a headache and I was absolutely shattered, that feeling has never gone away.

dealing with disappointment

Life with chronic illness can be extremely disappointing. I’ve recently had to deal with leaving sixth form and realising that my plans for my education are going to have to change. A lot. Every day I have little things I’m unable to do or cope with, which isn’t easy. Every time I have to lie down before I faint or collapse, every time I can’t leave my bed or look after myself properly, it’s like being hit in the stomach over and over again.